Private Diary of EAC

Edward’s gift for reading minds provides him with a glut of information about those around him, some of it wanted, but most of it not. His sense of integrity prevents him from sharing others’ secrets, and so to relieve his mind, he took time in 2011 and 2012 to record them in this diary, along with some secrets of his own.

[Content color-coded by primary character(s); legend below.]

MARCH, 2011
What I Know/ The Spanish Flu/ The Lost Cullen/
The Other Woman (or Esme’s Lament)
Rosalie & Me (NC-17)/ The Black Story (or Fatherhood)
APRIL, 2011

My Baby Girl/ My Mysterious Brother/ My Generation
Young Talent/ Bella’s Malady/ Age and the Ages
MAY, 2011

On My Own/ Dream (…a bit of whimsy)/ Harry’s Secret/ Schizophrenia
J.B. Fantasy #1/ J.B. Fantasy #2/ How Renesmee Saved Her Life/ J.B. Memory #1
JUNE, 2011

Teaching Rosalie/ J.B. Memory #2/ LOVE/ J.B. Memory #3
JULY, 2011

J.B. Memory #4/ Charlie’s Second Chance/ J.B. Memory #5
The Edwards Masen/ Sex and the Modern Man (PG-13)
AUGUST, 2011
J.B. Fantasy #3/ Rosalie’s Dream/ Our New Friend/ J.B. Fantasy #4
SEPTEMBER, 2011
Teaching Fred/ Naturists for a Day
OCTOBER, 2011
Alec & Jane/ Amun & Demetri
NOVEMBER, 2011
Fred Goes Hunting/ Gianna’s Demise/ Alice Alone #1 (Jackson)
DECEMBER, 2011
Reunion/ Bobby Fischer/ A Cullen Christmas
JANUARY 2012
Fenix/ Alice Alone #2 (Chicago)/ Scary Little Monster
FEBRUARY 2012
What Happened to Alice?
/ Her Other Life (NC-17)/ S.O.S./ Tanya & Me
MARCH 2012
Fred Goes North/ Alice’s Vision/ Growing Up Nessie/ Skyping Renee
The Strength of Ten (NC-17)/ Fading Away Renee/ Sex & the Newborn
APRIL 2012
The Secret Garden (MA)/ My Year as a Sex Slave (NC-17)/ Bella Cried
The Day Would Come, I./ Sex & the Schoolgirl, II./ All Grown Up, III.
Bobbi Fischer’s Legacy/ Adjustments, IV.
MAY 2012
The Day I Lost It (NC-17)/ The Angel Cullen/ Alice in Chains (MA)
A Shocking Situation (MA)/ Appropriating Fred
JUNE 2012
Rosalie’s New Dream
SEPTEMBER 2012
The Wheel Turns/ Womanly Wiles
OCTOBER 2012
Whiter Shade of Pale

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For Your E-reader (photos, footnotes, & media attachments removed)

March through November, 2011:
Private Diary of Edward Anthony Cullen, Part 1.PDF

December 2011 through June 2012:
Private Diary of Edward Anthony Cullen, Part 2.PDF

Color Key:
♥ = Edward
♥ = Bella
♥ = Alice/Jasper

♥ = Renesmee
♥ = Jacob
♥ = Rosalie/Emmett
♥ = Esme/Carlisle
♥ = Fred
♥ = Quileute/Humans
♥ = The Denalis

♥ = The Volturi /Victoria’s coven

813 Responses to Private Diary of EAC

  1. Angelique Bondurant says:

    I love your work and Edward’s point of view. But I didn’t see anything about what happened to Charlie and Sue. Did he marry Sue? Did he find out about what Bella has become? Some loose ends I would like to know about. Thank you so much for you work! You are very talented and an amazing writer.

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Angelique,
      I didn’t write specifically about what happened to Charlie and Sue, but when I left them, they were well on their way to marriage, I believe. They have so much to share with each other that they can’t share with anyone else. As far as Charlie finding out about what Bella is, I believe that in his heart, Charlie knows she is “other-worldly,” but that he is very good at blocking that information from his mind. He has been told by Jacob that if he pursues knowing more about Bella and the Cullens that they will leave and never return. Charlie would do anything to avoid losing Bella and Renesmee, so I believe that he will leave it alone forever. Sue knows what they are, of course, but she is prevented by treaty from telling him outright. If she hints at it during their lives together, I believe that Charlie will willfully reject the information for his own sanity’s sake. That’s my take on it… -PAL

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  2. Genesis Marquina says:

    This is absolutely AMAZING— no it’s better than amazing! There are no words to describe how I feel about this. So much appreciation for doing this on behalf of Stephanie Myer . All you’re work us astonishing. You have such a creative mind and I love this. Thank you with all my heart for doing this . It brings me so much joy !

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  3. Caron Jennifer says:

    Hey PAL
    Reading this is just soo amazing!!
    I love your point of view and I’ve waited for Meyer to write whatever you’ve written like forever, thank you for doing it on her behalf.
    I couldn’t love you more than this .
    Please Write more….
    CJ

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Ahh, thanks so much. I’m really pleased you like Edward’s diary. It was so much fun to fill in information gaps from his point of view. It was easy to write these stories when I was living almost full-time in the Twilight world, working on this website. It’s harder now because there is so much information to remember, but I’m rereading New Moon (Edward) right now. xx, -PAL

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  4. Katy says:

    I totally agree with the person below; those Jasper & Alice stories were so HOT!! I’m dying for more. On a scale 1-10 how likely would it that you’d write a book about them? I’m sure tons of other people would want to read them as well.

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      I’m so glad you liked them, Katy! I’m not currently devoting time to Twilight fan fiction because, as a professional writer, I need to spend my time writing work that I can sell. So, as of now, I have no plans to write more Alice and Jasper stories. -PAL

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  5. Despina Simenidis says:

    Hello! I know this comment will likely get lost in a sea of other comments that come to you, but I have to say, you write so amazingly. I too, write Twilight fan fictions and use these books to understand something that made no sense or left me a bit clueless in Stephenie Meyer’s books. I hope you don’t think I’m stealing any ideas, I can assure you I’m not. I just wanted to say that you have definitely filled the missing pieces (Hence the name) of the Twilight books. I read every chapter of every book, and I admit without hesitation, the last chapter posted of the Private Diary of EAC I cried. I did, and it was the perfect way to end this trilogy, even if it might have ended differently in Meyer’s version. I love it, and will most likely read this for the next few years, as I am obsessed. Just wanted to show the love!

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Despina,
      Amazingly, comments rarely get lost here. WordPress is such a wonderful platform that it’s easy to see every comment that comes in, regardless of which page it’s entered on. And surprisingly, I often remember the names of commenters who take the time to write something thoughtful or thought-provoking, or those who come back repeatedly to comment. It’s a great treat for me.

      Yes, my goal with all the books, but especially with Edward’s diaries, was to resolve questions that I felt were left unanswered by Stephenie Meyer’s original work. And most of the ideas flowed naturally from her books, including (and especially) The Twilight Saga: The Official Illustrated Guide . There’s a lot of background information there that led to many of the conclusions I draw in the short stories of the diary. My goal was to make it all logically imagined from the original sources. Another source of information is the website the Twilight Lexicon, whose creators worked with Stephenie Meyer to flesh out many questions she didn’t answer in the books. I chose not to read the material there because I wanted to leave myself latitude to create something new, and also, I didn’t want to accidentally “steal” ideas from those gals. So I know where you’re coming from. And you’re right, of course, my interpretations are mine. I’m fairly certain Ms. Meyer would never write Alice and Jasper as Dominant/Submissive partners, for instance, or have Renesmee develop a crush on Fred the vampire, but freedom to interpret is most of the fun of writing. 🙂

      I’m glad that the emotions I tried to portray in some of the stories came through. It’s always hard to tell when you’re creating them if they hit the marks you intend. One reason I’ve stopped writing stories here is that after a long time away from the research of the Twilight world, it’s very easy to make mistakes. The final story is one such, given Alice’s inability to “see” the wolves, but I left it in because I felt strongly about the images and the future possibilities presented in it. My excuse is that Alice has learned over time to better see the future of the wolves. All the vampires with special gifts can extend and improve them with practice, and after Renesmee is born, Alice has a lot more motivation to work on that. Anyway, thank you for your kind note. I’m thrilled when people relate to this work because I put a lot of love into it. 🙂 -PhoebeAnn

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  6. pthalia75@gmail.com says:

    Do you ever plan on doing a Jasper/Alice book? I could not get enough of them after I read the entries in Edward diary.

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      I think it would be a lot of fun to write one. Unfortunately, it’s hard to make the time to write non-paying material these days. But I’m really glad you liked their entries. I thought the D/S aspect really fit their characters as portrayed in Twilight, all the hints about how protective Jasper was, how commanding he was in his human life, and how Alice might be particularly drawn to a protective, dominant male after being saved from the mental hospital. And those two clearly have a lot of secrets together. -PAL

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      • Thalia says:

        I can totally understand your hesitance. I’ll be hoping that you find the time; I’ve read all the stories on your website and my mouth is watering at the idea of an Alice/Jasper book.

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  7. faby says:

    Are this books for sale I would love to buy to all of this books for my daughter I started reading them here on this web page but I do want to know if the are for sale I’m hooked and I love all your writhing

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Faby,
      These books are fan fiction, and as such, can’t be sold since Stephenie Meyer owns the copyright to the characters and the world. You can download the PDF files of each book, though, and read them to your heart’s content for free. -PAL

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  8. Lanie says:

    I was just wondering if, when you had Leah imprint on Fenix, you realized that she is related to him?

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Lanie,
      That is very perceptive of you! Someone else pointed this out some time ago, and I wrote a lengthy reply. I’ll repost it here in answer to your question. Thanks for commenting! -PAL
      ——————
      Well…oops. To be honest, this was simply an oversight on my part, an example of why writing stories that extend the original world is so difficult. The more you write and the further into the future you go with it, the more room is created for errors or inconsistencies. In checking The Twilight Saga: The Official Illustrated Guide, though, I see that Emily and Leah are listed as second cousins, which would make Leah and Fenix second cousins once removed. In the United States, marriage between second (and more distant cousins) is legal in all 50 states because it doesn’t warrant any particular concern for genetic abnormalities. Since the wolves are already “abnormal” and they imprint based on which partners are most likely to reproduce the wolf gene, I suppose that coupling with a cousin actually has some precedent and benefit to them. In a small tribe like the Quileute, it would always be the case that the individuals are more closely related to one another than in the population at large. I wouldn’t be surprised if tribal law for most Native Americans allows for first cousin marriage in real life. Pure blood means intermarriage, like that of European royalty throughout time. -PAL

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  9. Night owl says:

    In one of the chapters a book/chapter is mentioned something about taking care of your human…. Was this something you did do and if so where
    May I find it? Thank you I loved reading Edwards point of view and the diary and the extras!!!! Thanks for writing

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Night Owl, 😉
      Yes, early on in this project, I wrote a little booklet (penned by Edward) that records all the issues he encountered in having a relationship with a human. Being of scientific bent, he wrote it down in the form of an academic/journal paper in case other vampires might need the information. The paper is called “The Vampire’s Guide to the Care and Maintenance of a Human Being”. (You’ll find it in the menu under “Vampire’s Guide” at the top of every page.) That link takes you to the outline for the paper. At the bottom is Edward’s dedication to Jacob followed by the link “Next: Contents”. Click on that and you’ll get the entire text of the 20-page paper. Here’s a short link if you want to go directly to the paper, including illustrations. I had a lot of fun writing it. It still makes me laugh. I hope you like it. -PAL
      p.s. Now that I look at it after a long time, I realize how convoluted this structure is. I may go reorganize the links a bit, but you’ll always be able to find it from the menu at the top of every page.

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  10. Jay1997 says:

    Hey there !
    I really liked your version of THE SAGA more than Ms. Meyer’s……
    Sorry but I really felt ickie sometimes reading it
    I basically liked Twilight just for the fiction and myths and all those mysterious stories
    But with your versions and these diary entries I got all of it !!!! I mean who would have thought that the offspring of a hybrid vamp and a werewolf would be that fascinating!!!!!
    Really loved it !!! Thanks for the stories!!!! Really appreciate it!!!

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Jay! I missed seeing your comment earlier, but I’m so pleased you took the time to write. Edward’s diary was a project close to my heart. It’s where I got to “riff” on all the information I learned about the Twilight characters, letting my imagination fill in the blanks. I enjoyed writing it a great deal, and I’m glad you enjoyed going there with me. All the best, -PAL

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      • Jay1997 says:

        I hope that you are gonna write more stories or rather diary entries of Edward ” The Mind reader” Cullen . It was really a thrilling experience to read the Mind Reader himself. Best of luck if you are already!

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  11. sld1984 says:

    Hi there.im just downloading secret diary of edward anthony cullen
    Ive found ur site also.with interest in the rest of midnight sun
    Ive read all of the stories for each book.loved them !!
    Ive rad heaps of different fan fictions. Great seeing it from others p.o.v.
    Thanx again.

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  12. vaishnavi says:

    reallly inpressed wth ua work………..indeeed u hv done a gr8 job

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  13. Saphire Ruiz says:

    Though I’m long past my infatuation with the Meyer’s series, I stumbled upon your work because I was curious about the continuation of the midnight sun draft. I must say, I have not been disappointed in the least! And have read, already all of your work and am now in the process f reading the journal entries. You’re brilliant! Just incredible truly! I was recently reading the Journal entries and it struck me that perhaps Leah Clearwater doesn’t have to have an unhappy ending. See, if Renesme ends up with Jake, why can’t Leah and Nahuel get together? Just rambling thoughts of mine, but I always wondered. I get the whole passing-the-gene thing but maybe Leah doesn’t necessarily need to pass the gene. She could just find her true mate and be happy. I think she’s owed that. But that’s probably just me as a hopeless romantic but I was curious about your take on such an idea. Do you think you might, in the future perhaps, give Leah Clear water a happy ending?

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Thank you for this great comment! I’m so glad you’re enjoying my version of Edward’s point-of-view, post-infatuation. 😉 I think I’ll withhold commenting about Leah until after you finish the diary. I’m not sure how far along you are, but you might find more information in there. Then let me know what you think about Leah’s situation. -PAL

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  14. Chris Doncom says:

    I love reading your work – you are an extremely gifted writer. I have one question about the diary entry from Feb 2012, “Her Other Life”. My immediate thought was that this was set in a storyline related to the New Moon period but where Edward stayed away for longer and then returned to find Bella with Jake. However, the diary entry mentions scenes from later in Eclipse. In your back story, what are your thoughts for the reason why Bella ended up with Jake?

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Chris,
      Thank you for your lovely comment. And you ask a great question! If you notice in the first paragraph, Edward mentions sitting at “their cottage hearth,” so this daydream actually takes place after he and Bella are married and Renesmee has been born. I wrote this story because I imagined that Edward would sometimes wonder what Bella’s life would have been like if Jacob had won out over him during the drama in Eclipse–if Jacob’s kiss had been enough to sway her to change her alliance from himself to Jake. (We know that Bella wouldn’t have done that because she makes it clear to us that the biggest part of her heart belonged to Edward, the smaller part to Jacob, but Edward must always have felt a little insecure about her choice, whether it was the right one for her, and if she ever regretted it.) So, no, Bella never ended up with Jacob and never would have after Edward returned, though I think it’s quite possible she would have if Edward hadn’t come back after leaving in New Moon.

      As for my motivation as a writer, I wanted to explore what Bella’s life might have looked like if Edward hadn’t come back (or had died at the hands of the Volturi). This is how I imagine–or rather, have Edward imagine–Bella’s life without him. Bella would be happy with Jake and her two children, but she would bear the scars of losing him, and sometimes…just sometimes, she would think of him and wish for him again. -PAL

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  15. Sarah says:

    Hi PAL,
    Vampire bites are the only one which leaves marks…So during Bella’s transformation when Bella was bitten by Edward…Did those bites left marks after her transformation???

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      That’s a good question. I would say no. If you think about it, Edward is biting the human Bella, and we know that vampire bites do leave scars on humans because Bella has one on her hand left by the vampire James. However, during the transformation from human to vampire, imperfections in the human skin are burned away. (If it weren’t, then all the Cullens would have bite scars on their necks.) If Edward were to bite Bella after her transformation, then she would get a new scar on her otherwise perfect vampire skin. -PAL

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      • sarah says:

        But in above diary in chapter “The Lost Cullen” you mentioned that Carlisle has marks on his neck..
        For Carlisle,
        it was the horror of being bitten by the London sewer wraith and
        crawling off to die. (You might have noticed that he always wears
        his collars high on his neck, or covers his neck with a scarf, or
        protects it with a coat or hat, because that’s where his
        transformative bite was made.)

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        • PA Lassiter says:

          You have a good eye for detail, which is fantastic! The “scar” on Carlisle’s neck (though I’m not sure I used that word, actually) isn’t physical, it’s psychological. Because he suffered that terrifying trauma, he’s felt vulnerable ever since to have his neck exposed. He wears high collars and scarves to feel slightly more protected psychologically from the remembered trauma (not to hide a physical scar). This is a detail I actually gleaned from a TV interview with Peter Facinelli, the actor who played Carlisle in the movies. I believe it was his idea to wear the high collars and scarves in the films to hint at his sense of vulnerability. I thought it was a wonderful detail so added it to my story. -PAL

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  16. lynetteavatt@hotmail.com says:

    Do Nessie and Jacob live together forever? I know you mention that Nessie cannot die, but what about her daughter Sarabel and Jacob, can they live forever?

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  17. Caroline Mae says:

    Hi! I loved your books from Edward’s point of view and I really love these entries. I just have one question, did Renesmee die?

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi! I’m so glad you like these stories. They were a lot of fun to write. No, Renesmee didn’t die. She is actually immortal; they just don’t know that for sure in the early years. Renesmee suffers like a human and, like a human, takes a long time to heal when she is hurt, but she cannot die. -PAL

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  18. Nancy says:

    I’m a late fan of twilight and I have to say I do like your versions more… It’s great to see so many other possibilities you developed in the other works and I like a lot my country mentioned in Edward’s diary!! I’m from Costa Rica 😊 Very interesting the turnaround in the story of Fenix, didnt see that one coming! I had not read books in a while because I’m a mother of 2 kids so not much quiet time to read, but with twilight I feel like I want to keep re-reading them over and over… I do think having your versions definitely completes the originals so I cannot read one part without thinking about the other one and end up checking both versions! I’m telling you, I really just can’t stop! GREAT WORK! thank you!

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    • PA Lassiter says:

      Hi Nancy,
      I was also a late fan, having only started reading the books in 2010. I’m so pleased that you enjoyed the diary, since all of the pieces are original ideas that came to me while I was writing Edward’s point-of-view. Every time I ran into a question I had about the characters or noticed an interesting question that Ms. Meyer didn’t answer in the books, I took a few days to write a story about it. It was wonderfully fun to fill in the blanks using my own imagination.

      Though I have not yet visited Costa Rica, your country holds a special place in my heart for several reasons. First, my favorite (and best) computer science college professor was from there, and he influenced my choice of careers. Second, when I lived in Seattle, we always got such wonderful fruits and vegetables and flowers from Costa Rica during the winter. Third, when I lived in southern Florida, people there considered Costa Rica the best place to move to if you wanted to leave the U.S.–the jungle, the beaches, the highly educated people, many wonderful things to love. 🙂
      Thanks for taking the time to comment! -Phoebe Ann

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  19. shab says:

    Sir, thank u so much for all your works. I m a big, crazy, ardent fan of TWILIGHT and ur works make me so happy and satisfied. i m looking forward to read some more books in future. keep doing this work. You are amazing at it. Again thank you so much 🙂

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  20. monika says:

    I have to say….u r just amazing…I would have never thought someone would carry on this journey so well…(the twilight saga’s journey).
    Thank you so much P.A . again I would like to appreciate you. You must b used to this type of compliments bt every single one is unique. 🙂 Looking forward to read some more of ur books in future..

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